Sunday, January 9, 2011

How time flies...

When you are having fun, and chasing a two year old. Well, it's been way too long since I last posted, but truthfully, I've been happy to let things go and just live a little. As a survivor with a disease will most likely return, it's nice to spend a little time away from it. Never truly away from it, but more focused on life than on the disease.

Here's the latest. I had my six month CT scans the Monday after Christmas and met with Dr. Grinblatt, my oncologist, on Wednesday. My scans were completely clear, everything looked terrific, even my heart was in good shape, which apparently was of some concern as people undergoing high dose chemotherapy can sustain some significant heart damage which can lead to an enlarged heart.

I also had my last round of Rituxan. This treatment marked the end of my chemotherapy cycle for the stem cell transplant. Three months after I got out of the hospital, I began quarterly Rituxan treatments. Eight treatments later, I am done! Wohoo! No more treatments! Yay! Although, I still have to have CT scans every 6 months for three more years and then CT scans once a year the rest of my life. I also have to see Dr. Grinblatt every 3 months for the next three years to track my progress, and watch for relapse.

Health wise, I'm doing great. I still have terrible short term memory issues, which I will be getting tested for this spring, and I get tired easily so I nap alot, but other than that I am back to normal. Or as I tell people, as normal as I'm ever going to be.

Honore is doing well. Working wayyyy too hard practicing dentistry and being a wonderful Mommy for her beloved little Hope. Her health is good, and so is Hopie's. Honore is now on the Board of the Illinois Chapter of the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society, although I'm not sure how long that's going to last as it sometimes drives her crazy, but it's good for her.

Hope's everything a soon to be three year old should be. Full of energy, running full blast morning till nap, then again till bedtime. We are so blessed. I look at Hope, and I just know that's the Universe(or God)'s way of telling us He's listening to our prayers.

Happy New Year! And thanks for listening....I went back and re-read this over the holidays and was nearly crying. I don't remember so much of what happened, and I cannot believe I went through it all. It's almost like it never happened, which is both a blessing and a curse.

I still get notes from people from time to time to stumble upon my humble little blog in their search for answers to a lymphoma diagnosis. As I have always said, I am here for you should you need. Please feel free to contact my anytime....twilhite@emergent1.com.

Peace,

Travis

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Leukemia Cup Regatta Fundraising 2010

Well, it's been a while, but we have been busy living my life to the fullest. We have been out enjoying Hope's Terrible Twos(yes, although stressful, it remains the greatest thing we have ever done). My cancer remains in remission, and recently I had sinus surgery to, hopefully, reduce the number of sinus infections I contract, and thereby reduce the likelihood of my cancer returning.

My cancer remains incurable, and my doctor tells me it's merely a "matter of time, let's hope it's still a ways away". So, again Honore and I are supporting the Leukemia Cup Regatta event here in Chicago. Here's a copy of our fundraising campaign. To help support our effort, please go to www.sailtravis.com.

June 1, 2010

Dear Friends and Loved Ones,

This year marks our seventh fundraising campaign for the Leukemia & Lymphoma’s Leukemia Cup Regatta. Your love and support has helped us raise over $250,000 for research into blood based cancers like my Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, for more on my story go to honitrav.blogspot.com.

Honore and I have fought my disease for seven years now. We have battled for every day, and hearing the laughter in our daughter’s voice when she finds something humorous makes every PET scan or CT scan or Rituxan treatment or blood test that much easier. All of those tests, all of those inconveniences, are what keep me alive to appreciate Hope’s laughter.

And, as of January of this year, my cancer is in remission. Sadly however, remission remains the best I can hope for as there is still no cure for my disease. One day, one of the scans will come back with another mass, and the cancer will have returned. The stem cell transplant from two years ago gives me a 50-50 chance of making five years before the horror returns. When it comes back, one treatment option remains: a donor stem cell transplant. However, the procedure carries a 25% fatality rate, and provides no cure.

To me, life is a precious gift, which is why I continue to ask for your donations to support the Leukemia Cup Regatta. The gift you give with your support is life. Its hope that a cure will be found, but it’s more, it’s actually DOING something about finding a cure because 85% of all donations to the Society actually go to a researcher.

Would you please make a donation to support the Society? To donate online, log on to www.sailtravis.com or complete the donation form below and return it in the included envelope. We understand these economic times make giving difficult. Please know any amount is greatly appreciated and makes a difference. Thank you for your love and support.

This year’s regatta kicks off August 27th with the Red Sky event Friday night at Columbia Yacht Club, which will include food, drinks, dancing, a silent and a live auction. Please call the club for reservations, 312/938-3625. The racing will be Saturday on Lake Michigan followed by a dock party and awards ceremony at Columbia Yacht Club. Mark your calendars today!

I am going to beat this disease and I am going to live my dream of walking Hope down the aisle one day, I just need your help to insure it becomes a reality.

With Love and Gratitude,

Honore & Travis

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Update Hope's 2nd Birthday

Tonight, we held my beautiful daughter's second birthday party. She was born yesteraday, two years ago, but we held the party tonight because last night we had family night. So I'm feeling unusually emotional, and I'm not terribly great at that if you didn't guess already.

Just seeing the picture montage(sp?) of darling little Hope made me appreciate what a wonderful life I have been blessed with, even just in the last two years. Cancer aside, the last two years have been a roller coaster of highs and lows that I wouldn't trade in for all the gold in the world. I have been blessed with the highest of highs, and the lowest of lows, and have been taught the humility to appreciate the wonder of the world we live in, it's truly incredible.

Then, after everyone went to bed, I was listening to my iTunes on random, and several songs from earlier in my life came on, and I began to wander down the road of my own history. I have been a VERY lucky person. I have seen some incredible things; places, people, events in time, and history making passages.

One of the greatest lessons of cancer that I learned came from my spirit guide while I was meditating once. I probably wrote about the time he took me to the bottom of the waterfall that was at the bottom of the canyon. I think of that journey now because it holds so much significance for me. I have seen so much, but to truly appreciate the summit's I have achieved, I have had to overcome so many chasms, and having survived long enough to endure the valley floor, I appreciate the mountaintops all the more.

Ok, so I'm a lousy linguist, and a wretched writer, but my point is, I appreciate the top of the mountain more, because I climbed here from the bottom. And Hope's second birthday is an incredible summit for me.

Yesterday, Honore and I took her to the Shedd Aquarium for her birthday. Too see the wonder in her eyes, the pure, unadulterated excitement for the raw adventure of life was inspiring to me. For a brief moment, I glimpsed the energy that drives all of us. That childhood curiosity which pushes us to see what lies just beyond the next corner, around the bend, beyond the horizon.

I felt complete because for all the years of being the child of my parents, and then exploring the world on my own, finally I began to see what the world I would pass on to my child might look like. I could see in the wonderment of her eyes the desire to explore, and that made me feel wonderful.

I am sure this lesson is something all parent go through, but I am grateful to be one long enough to experience it.

Had my PET scan two weeks ago, and the cancer is still in remission. So I get another 6 month reprieve, Halleleujah!

Love,

Travis

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Christmas 2009

Merry Christmas! It's wonderful to get to be here.

Life is a GIFT! How do you appreciate it?

I am thankful for everyday. Everyday with Honore, Hope, my family and my friends. And I appreciate my life by living it to the best of my ability all the time.

Love,

Travis

Monday, October 12, 2009

October 2009 Update

Wow, how time flies. I didn't realize it has been so long since I posted, so I better get something down. We've been really busy, as you might imagine with Hope now becoming a full-on toddler. She's entering the independent phase where every question we ask is answered, "No-no."

Hope are you thirsty? "No-No." between sips on her sippee cup.

or Hope, did you poopy? "No-No." Even though everyone within a block can smell it.

As for my health, I'm doing well. I had my third round of Rituxan in September, which went well. My doctor said I was doing great, blood work looked terrific, no B symptoms, basically nothing to complain about. Still in remission, so still just going one day at a time...which is really a great kind of way to live, no so tied up in worrying about the future really frees me in alot of ways.

I've been battling the flu the last two weeks. My body just doesn't seem to bounce back quite as quickly when I do get sick. I was sick for a couple of weeks with something similar in the spring. My only thing with that is I HATE being laid low. Just tired of being sick I guess...you kinda get that way after a while.

One thing that has been a huge positive for me lately, is how many people have contacted me because of the blog. Just last night I received an email from someone who's spouse was going through R-ICE chemotherapy in preparation for a Stem Cell Transplant. He was asking a few questions, and thanked me for posting this blog. It really touche me because that's what I intended when I originally decided to start this thing.

I hoped that by sharing my experiences I could, in some small way, make other people's journey that much easier, or maybe just a little less frightening. It is very rewarding to hear from people who draw inspiration or strength from what I wrote last year. It's kinda magical.

Gman, who is in the middle of his transplant right now, hang in there man....I'm pulling for you. You can do it!!! And, Craig's wife, who's in RICE today to get ready for a transplant, hopefully before Chrismas, you hang in there too!!! I know y'all have the strength and determination to make it....and you're in our prayers.

Guess, part of the truth of not writing is simply not knowing what anyone would find of any interest. Basically, we have a relatively normal life now. Sure, it feels like we're running around with our hair on fire all the time, but isn't that part of it? Isn't part of life being there and participating? Sure feels like it to me, at least after all we've been through, that's how I have come to view life.

This is the roller coaster, enjoy it while your aboard. The ride will end someday.....

Love to you all,

Travis